Loving Somebody Who Doesn’t Want to be Loved

This post needs a soundtrack. I could hear the Beatles while I was writing this.  Here is a nice link so you can hear it, too.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsxtImDVMig

Love, Love, Love…
All you need is love……

Unconditional love.

SOUNDS GOOD.
Application?
SO HARD!

Sometimes love is not enough.
Sometimes nothing is enough.
Sometimes nothing is the most loving thing you can do.

I was born a fixer.
First born.
Fixer.

I know I can’t fix everything.
I KNOW it.
I don’t believe it.
There is shame when I can’t fix the proverbial IT.

Last night I gained some clarity.
Appropriated some wisdom.
I ALMOST believe that IT was not my fault,
At least not in whole.
I ALMOST believe that I can let IT go.
I ALMOST believe I can move on,
Free and freeing.

I did the best that I could in that moment.
THEY did the best they could in that moment.
I ALMOST believe that.

Nothing can be changed.
I can offer forgiveness.
If forgiveness is not returned,
I can forgive myself.

I am free.
Most days.
Most of the time.

Free.
Free to love
with no expectation of reciprocation.
Free.

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